When is tomorrow?

It's funny how people say tomorrow will be a better day... does life get better and better? Don't wanna sound like a pessimist but I can't help but wonder why people say that? Looking at the world sometimes tears me down. I used to cry for what the world has slowly turned into. Is tomorrow still gonna be as good as yesterday or today, that is still a question mark.

Just some random thoughts. Oh well, maybe being a psycho is a better choice after all. They don't care what's going on and all. Peace out!

Simple Plan is Love!

Inspired by Simple Plan. It's June 21st already!!! I can't believe it... I'm gonna get my Simple Plan Get Your Heart On! soon. I'm so excited!!!

Too bad I couldn't write essay long at this moment cuz I'm super busy. Maybe I'll blog again when I've gotten my copy of GYHO.

Till then. ROCK ON!

Too little too long...

"难过是因为闷了很久..."

I couldn't agree more. I have been single FOREVER. Sometimes I really wanna feel loved. Not love from God, family or friends, but from a boyfriend. Although I can't see myself having a boyfriend, getting into serious relationship and all yet, deep down, I wanna be the innocent, blur girlfriend.

Sometimes things and people life leads you the wrong way. You kept going didn't know where you're heading to until you hit a hole or run into a rock. That's when you wake up from your dream, with bruises and pain, tears and sadness.

I really really was so sure that I've found the one. So sure that I just sit there waiting for it to happen. So sure that I keep praying to God like a little girl promising God she'll be a good girl so that she'll get some rewards like candies or something. But now I really am uncertain anymore. Not that I'm doubting God but things just got clearer and clearer. The more I know, the more I sink. The hollowness in my heart got deeper and deeper I can barely breathe.

Guess it's true that to make your dreams come true, first you'll have to WAKE UP. Listening to Britney's "From the bottom of my broken heart". Kinda felt some parts of the song. Accidentally shed a tear. One sided love sucks.

Alright, it's time to move on. But it's been 4 months, I dunno how am I gonna deal with this one this time........

You were gone too soon...

Hey there now
Where’d you go
You left me here so unexpected
You changed my life
I hope you know
Cause now I’m lost
So unprotected

In a blink of an eye
I never got to say goodbye

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

You were always there
And like shining light
On my darkest days
You were there to guide me

Oh I miss you now
I wish you could see
Just how much your memory
Will always mean to me
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In a blink of an eye
I never got to say goodbye

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

Shine on! shine on!
To a better place
Shine on! shine on!
Will never be the same

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon
Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon
Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon

Lyrics from the song gone too soon…

Well, this morning I don’t get to sing it with my heart yet because I don't quite feel the lyric. But after church, he gave me a very awful reason to sing…

Get you heart ON!!!

Click here. It will direct you to the link to stream the whole album.

Gosh! You have no idea HOW happy I was when I saw this on my dad's iPhone last night. I was like on cloud 9! I mean maybe not getting the Ultimate Fan Bundle ain't that bad after all. It's like I don't have the free membership and posters that's all. Because I still get to stream the WHOLE album.

I'm so with EVERY SINGLE song in this "Get Your Heart On" album. Imma SPread this news. Everybody MUST get the album or at least go stream it!

There's a few, wait NO, a number of songs in this album I really really like. 1st of cuz is none other than Jetlag! I really really love the song "Gone Too Soon", "This Song Saved My Life", "Last One Standing", "You Suck At Love", "Summer Paradise", "Freaking Me Out".... Wait, this is like almost the whole album already! Hahahahahaha... Call me crazy but I'm really obsessed about this band.

Here's the lyric of "This Song Saved My Life".

Damn, I dunno what to say. Totally speechless. Simple Plan NEVER let me down. But the Live Chat with Simple Plan always does. I don't understand how that thing works. Or izzit cuz it was at the end already?! Ah, whatever. I didn't make it for the chat because dad promised to send me back at 6am but ended up departing at 6.30am. Oh well, at least I get to stream the WHOLE album. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! I've waited for the album for like.......3 and a half years!!!

IT IS WORTH WAITING! Because the songs they produced are AWESOME!!! I can go on saying this forever. Oh how I love you Simple Plan. So love you for a moment I'd almost forgotten my love. Simple Plan is EVERYTHING to me. And I can't wait till I get this album!!!

One thing, I was blessed with RM300. I dunno what to do with it. I was supposed to get something I need with that money but I didn't expect I was given this much. Should I buy the Ultimate Fan Bundle? NAH!!!!!!!!!! I thought that through... Not really that necessary anymore. 50 bucks goes to.....*censored* and the rest I will spend them wisely!

WOOHOO!!! Today is the HAPPIEST day of my life (so far)!!! And I gave dad the Music & Wine album.

Wonder if he's gonna like it. Since he drinks wine so much, guess he needs a really awesome cd as company. Anyway, it was meant for the Father's Day. Like it or not, it's his now! Next trip back home I'm gonna rip those cds for my iPod. Seriously in love with Jazz music.

Listening to Simple Plan's "Summer Paradise" now. Feel like going to the beach!!!

Peace out! See ya next time!

Love is just around the corner...

So he said I'm a stalker. Damn! I know it's true but that was kinda hurtful. That sentence keeps circling in my head. Gosh! I seriously don't like this feeling.

My sad look... WAHAHA!

This morning I told Berry I'm tired of banging on walls like a stupid ball. This indicates that it is one sided, no respond, nothing at all. Just the harder I hit, the further I bounce back and the harder I hit the ground.

Should I carry on? I can't help but wondering. But if he is who God promised will be mine then he will be. Till now I'm still not certain. I dowanna take action because I'm afraid of the outcomes. What if in the end it turns out he was just another passerby but I already love him so deeply I can't turn back? What if in the end I will lose him? I cannot bear to see what's coming. Cannot bear losing him as a lover or a friend.

In the recent episode of HIMYM I watched, after what Jen said to Ted about how love is running to him, ask him to wait. I'm like.... yea, JUST WAIT. It's just around the corner. Maybe at my blindspot I just hadn't seen. Hahahaha, too good to be true. Man, I really hate guessing games. What to do? Tik tok tik tok... I guess I'll just wait till the day he's leaving Malaysia. Cuz by that time, I have nothing else to lose.

Just around the corner.....

Dream dream dream~

I gotta say, Superman has been my childhood superhero. Look how awesome he is?!

That was random but em..... what can I say? I just feel like blogging something. I don't need a reader, I just wanna be a writer (Doesn't really make sense). Thoughts could get you far but when you come back to senses, you're still at where you were. I wanna see how far I can get... whether in reality or in my dreams.

Dreams have no boundaries. I gotta agree with this. A handsome mixed guy randomly entered my dream and told me he has no idea what he is and all he knew was that he's a muslim. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?

In reality, don't think anyone would actually come to me and say that. Fun-neh!

Well, I dunno what am I trying to write here but for now, my life is kinda heading to nowhere. Sucks! Who cares? I have many reasons to stay in this world still. I have my dream of owning a FOOD COMPLEX. Yes, you "heard" me. My dream is to own a building with different cuisines. Guess I need to travel all over the world to hire some really great chefs to make this happen. But the problem is, I have the concept, but I don't have modal. I'm on liability! I own the freaking ptptn money! How O how long will my dreams come true?

Nevermind... If the world's not gonna end, I will have the chance to achieve it. But for now, live a life like I'm dying first. Hiak hiak.... TETRIS BATTLE HERE I COME!

Believe

I was once lost,

Feelin’ so empty couldn’t find someone to think of.

You can call me a masochist,

For they say love brings lotsa pain but I’m dying to feel it again.

After months of fantasy (about Lee Seung Gi),

You came along and changed everything.

Throwing cautions to the wind,

I gave you a chance to sneak in.

How I wish I could love you recklessly,

But an awful truth made me kept you away from me.

Yet I think about you all the time,

Wondering if there’s this day you’d be mine.

I’ve always acted like I didn’t care when you’re around,

Deep down all I ever wanted was you to talk to me.

How can two persons click so well?

Yet there’s nothing that could tie them together.

Hungry I call upon the Lord,

Somehow losing you (as a friend) is something I can’t afford.

You trust me enough to vent on me,

For I’m a good listener, friend, perhaps big sister?

O how I hate myself when you look me in the eyes,

When all the butterflies in my tummy evolve.

I’ll wait for the moment for I believe,

Whether you’re mine or not that’s for God to keep.