Optimist to Pessimist?

What do we have here? I was all hyped about my vision and now?

Because I think I just hit the wall. OUCH!

I know I know.... It's a lil too early to give up. I'm not giving up yet. I still like him like alot alot... It's just that, I dowanna spend my time thinking about him for a moment.

So ya, Imma put him into the freezer. I wanna take Seung Gi outta the fridge. Damn awful! But I love Seung Gi =P

Seung Gi: VICTORY!!!

I realize how crazy I was in love with Seung Gi. He was all I ever talked about before I met L. And after I met L, L is all I ever talk about. It's not right at all.

I guess this song was the reason I decided to store L in the freezer. I would be happier without have to think about him I guess. At least thinking about Seung Gi will never ever make me feel sad. Geez, I don't think I'm talking normally now. I don't even know what am I trying to say.

Oh well, for this moment of time, store L in the freezer that is.

What am I to you?

I start to feel like you're a stranger to me now. I know it's funny to say this cuz we've met like 2 months ago... You're so complicated... Like a puzzle and I have to keep searching for the missing pieces.

You've been hurt, I know that for a fact. All you want to do if have fun right now.

But why did you have to look at me and say those stuff about meeting new girls? Why do you have to ask me what I was thinking? Why did you wanna dig into my thoughts? Kept me wondering what's on your mind.

Part of me still think we were brought together by fate. Part of me think that maybe you're just another test I have to sit for. I really dunno. I'm not lost. I just dunno where I stand in your heart. As a really good friend? Or someone you wanna know more? Or just another church mate?

I really wanna know...

Random

For those who've known me for a long time, they should know that I'm a very random person. I can go craving for pop corn in the middle of the night or go to chill in starbucks alone.

Random. And I'm so bored sitting in the bus with Jack in my arms. Oh! Did I mention? Vinod got me a kangaroo =.= I was just jokingly mentioned and he actually got me one. So ya, it's Jack! 

Vinod that ass faced monkey! And hey this kangaroo look so much like him. And it's brown! Hahaha definitely is Vinod in disguise. Random!  And you know what I feel like doing now?? Eat udon!!! UDON!!! Damn I'm so hungry now! And it's so cold in the bus my fingers are numb. Ya! Cuz the smart me forgot my jacket on the chair. Oh well, I will survive.  

Anyway, I was so randomly thinking, what if L and I ended up like tae hung and miho? Not my pet tortoises! The two in the series. It's like when L realize my feelings for him when everything is too late. Will that happen? To be honest I'm not jealous kinda person. Though it breaks to see him getting close with other girls. But this is because he doesn't talk to me!!! If he replies me and all, I don't think I will go emo and all.  

Ah who cares? Being random isn't good. It makes me the hot and cold person I am. And when I feel like it, I will do it with all I am. When I don't, don't even bother to talk me to do something. Random! Now I wanna watch drama but it'd be very weird. But I couldn't sleep! Why? Cuz I just couldn't!  

Oh! This is so much more random! I feel like doing this in the future. You know the States likes to have this Hug for charity or Kiss for charity thingy where people donate money and get a hug or kiss from me. Then I will give the money away to do some charity. It's gonna be awesome!!!  Anyway, it's just random thoughts. I think I'm outta my mind. Better stop!

Before I end, I wish to dedicate this song to L.

You're my reflection

The title may seem a lil weird but today I'm telling a story about who was I and what kinda person I used to be like.

When I see that guy of my dream, let's call him L, he always reminds me of me. Well, not the current me but the old me. I mean young me?! Ah! The me a couple of years back. Why do I say so? It's cuz we have too much in common. I was crazy, lazy, messed up (sleeping time I mean) and I still am, talk nonstop, flirty... Another thing is L likes to shake or jump in the elevator, too! Hahahaha! Xiang yin used to hate me so much for doing that.

It's funny how you see yourself in someone. The another me. We're both the only Christian at home. I was pretty surprised. Another similarity. He's tough on the outside, soft on the inside. He's hot and cold, he likes Simple Plan... Too much in common I couldn't recall. Oh! We support the same football team and hate MU!!! F*** you MU!!! And one thing I know for sure, friends are very important to the both of us.

It seems like I've found myself instead of The One huh?! LoL! But it's good to have someone who agrees with you. The feeling is just so awesome. Same personalities except one thing! He's not a very on-time person. Or maybe he was just busy? Oh well, still need to work on that.

Oh, he loves horror movies too! And he listens to those songs I listen to. Uncountable.

One thing I wish he's not like me. Please do not be a clumsy person like me. It's funny how Joshua said sarcastically to me, "Call yourself miss independent?! Please la! So damn clumsy. You need someone to take care of you. You can even fall when you're just standing still." Hmm, wish he'd be the one to take care for me.

You know, I kinda think the both of us look a lil alike. Okay maybe he's the good looking one. Oh well... Don't think I can continue writing on the bumpy road when the bus is shaking like a boat. Gonna passed out soon. Till then!