To the left or to the right?

Am I too young to stop doing reckless things? 
Or am I too old for yet another love game?
Should I be waiting for the right train before I hop in?
Or should I just take the next train to nowhere?
Are you the one that I will spend my happily ever after with?
Or is he gonna be my next conquest?

Sitting on the bus looking through the window,
Then I close my eyes and all I see is the shape of your smiling face.
How did I fall for you?
Why it happened so quickly I didn't get to stop it?
I hated myself for being so easy,
But the fact that you're a package of everything I want fascinates me.
How could you fit so perfectly for me?
Why did you sneak in when I was throwing my cautions to the wind?
I love you and I wanna be with you.
Reality tells me it's time to move on but my heart's telling me to wait.

So whether do I learn to be a bitch/slut,
Or stay who I am till you feel my love?
The answer is pretty clear.
But at certain point I just wanna do reckless things I might regret.
Life is short.
Who knows it's 10 years later when you realize?
In the end I'm still debating with myself,
Stuck in dilemma waiting for yet another drama.