Thinking too much again...

At some point of your life, you just wanna be loved. Whether or not it's for a short period of time, you just want someone you could give all the love in the world to. There's been alot going through my mind lately, like whether do I go flirt around with that 'Canadian' guy or should I just sit there and wait till Mr. L to realize it. Well, of cuz it'd be awesome if he finds out and he likes me back (and this is like probability of 0.01) yet there's alot I need to worry about. But if I were to go for that 'canadian' guy, I dunno where will that heads to. I definitely am afraid of commitment with guys like that (well I said I was just gonna fling) just in case things get serious cuz he's a damn jerk! Grrrrhhh! Mr.L please tell me if you like me the way I like you :(

Hmm....... Wait till I get back to KL.

To the left or to the right?

Am I too young to stop doing reckless things? 
Or am I too old for yet another love game?
Should I be waiting for the right train before I hop in?
Or should I just take the next train to nowhere?
Are you the one that I will spend my happily ever after with?
Or is he gonna be my next conquest?

Sitting on the bus looking through the window,
Then I close my eyes and all I see is the shape of your smiling face.
How did I fall for you?
Why it happened so quickly I didn't get to stop it?
I hated myself for being so easy,
But the fact that you're a package of everything I want fascinates me.
How could you fit so perfectly for me?
Why did you sneak in when I was throwing my cautions to the wind?
I love you and I wanna be with you.
Reality tells me it's time to move on but my heart's telling me to wait.

So whether do I learn to be a bitch/slut,
Or stay who I am till you feel my love?
The answer is pretty clear.
But at certain point I just wanna do reckless things I might regret.
Life is short.
Who knows it's 10 years later when you realize?
In the end I'm still debating with myself,
Stuck in dilemma waiting for yet another drama.