CHRIST-mas!

Ho ho ho~ It's CHRISTMAS!!! Like FINALLY!!! But why am I so happy when I'm just spending it like any other day? Well, maybe it's cuz i felt loved. Its a day to remember Jesus. Our God is an awesome, mighty God. It's a day that gives us MORE reason to give love. Hallelujah~

My Christmas's Eve was nothing too fancy or thoughtful. I spent my night with Yan at her apartment (this word always makes me think of those really cool apartment we see in movies). I watched a movie called Christmas Kiss. And then we watched Miss Universe 2011 while have....... GARRETT POPCORN CHICAGO MIX!!!!!!


OMG this popcorn! First bite was DIVINE! I cannot explain that feeling but man was I in cloud nine. The long queue was really worth it, moreover it's for a super big popcorn lover like me. It's actually a temporary Xmas gift for Yan. Thought I wanna get a Bible or something like the Our Daily Bread thingy booklet. Who'd have expected? Kinokuniya doesn't have so much of this kinda stuff. The religion book there was....... too factual kinda book. Sure will bore her or give her stress. And since she said she's planning to get a bible, I definitely gonna get her one. Cuz, bible should be a gift. You don't buy your own bible until you're very ready to read it in a different version to see a clearer and better picture of what God's trying to tell us.

Anyway, I need to curse her for making me emo last night. Hahahaha damn girl! It's Christmas! Stop thinking about the Forever Alone future for one second please. I'm not really that desperate cuz I haven't actually found one yet (though deep down I kinda wish it would be L...). God WILL prepare for me. Maybe I wasn't meant to be in a relationship after all right? Well, whatever You want Lord. I will follow what You want.

OH! Did I not mention about Miss Universe? YAY! The winner was the one I really really like. She's from Angola. Dunno where the hell is that but BOY! her smile was a drop dead GORGEOUS killer smile. SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL!!!

HOW CAN A PERSON BE SO PERFECT? Her body is so awesome! In love with her~ So glad that she won.

Last night wished a few longggg lost friends Merry Christmas. Kenny! LOL he's a really funny person. He was so quiet when we were in Gold Coast and then yesterday, MAN can he talk. He's really spontaneous and super sweet. I've always thought he's a rather quiet person. But ho ho ho! He's a Sarjan or something man. Must be very active and is a really great leader. And I talked to my lou gong zai Yao Yang. Still the sweetest kid. Hahahaha love my little friend so much. So many wonderful people in the world I never gave a damn about them sometimes. I feel awful. But I'm glad that now I'm not that lazy to talk to people like I used to. Jeez!

It's Christmas day. Not Xmas. Damn Hong Joo. Annoying! Always got those weird theories. Well, what can I say? I have lotsa weird thinking too. Unacceptable sometimes. Hahahaha. Gonna spread my love~~

Last but not least, I gotta share a Christmas carol. None other than the classic We Wish You A Merry Christmas =)

Love At First Sight

Today woke up unwillingly. Damn! I think I'm falling sick. Lost focus.

The noon has been horrible. I can't stop thinking about my one in a million Ed Hardy aviator. I love him so much. More than I love Mr L. Hahahaha just kidding. It was love at first sight (NOT AGAIN?!) I wonder why I'm always falling into this love at first sight shit. Jeez! It's hard to find a suitable glasses asit's just as hard as finding a boyfriend. Ed loves me. But price tag is tearing us apart. What am I going to do about it?

I'm down on my knees. Mum why won't you please lemme buy it?

Starting to hate Jessie J at this point cuz she said it's not about the money money money.... OH HELL IT IS ALL ABOUT THE MONEY! RM 720?! Gosh... I have that amount of money but I don't think it is really that rational to get an aviator at this rate. I'm just a student. I need to save up. But this thing about Ed. OMGGGGGG he's like everything to me right now.

GIMME A GUN!

Life's a climb so keep holding on!

Written on 10th of December 2011

"Life is like a spelling test. It requires practices and when you make mistakes you have to make correction."

This was what Keith taught me tonight. Very powerful sermon. He taught us to face our mistakes instead of running away from them. We are only human. But we learn from our mistakes. Those who don't, are those who are making the biggest mistake in life.

Just be true to who you are. Jessie J said that. Well, making mistakes is not the end of the world. Even Adam and Eve disobeyed God. Whatever we've done, just be sure you don't lose your personality cuz we're all born special. Don't change who you are. Never ever. (I don't mean don't change those bad things about you, but those things which represent you)

I really like the saying that metaphoring human as the moon. We're just like the moon, has a bright side and the darker, hidden side. The side we never show. It could be really unpleasant to see, something we're too ashamed to let people find out. Well I gotta agree, there're more than just a side of me I never show. I think I really need to fight to change those facts about me. Another awesome fact I found is that moon has rough surface. It's like it crash and burn so many times but it still keep shining in the night sky. Human too. We been through so many tough times in life but we still keep holding on.

(Cameron Mitchell's version! Love it!)

Anyway... Tonight I have Yan with me as company. We pillow talked. It's so nice to have your girl with you. But the downside of it is that we both are so under the weather. Emotionally I mean. Gosh we both have been single for like forever and we're getting really scared we might end up alone. Gosh!!!!!!!! I dowanna think about it!!!!!!! I don't mean to be picky but I just want the best for myself. Is that too much to ask for?

I know God will prepare for me. I still believe He will. But I just can't help wondering when will that day come. I wanna get married by 26. 28 latest. What's wrong with me? I dowanna be someone I'm not. I'm like a childish BOY instead of girl in heart. Damn straight. I'm childish as f***. Boyish like dunno what. Jezz! But that's just...... Me! Doing crazy things in public forgetting that I am happens all the time.

I guess I'll just wait till someone see the best in me :)

No Sun Day

Written on 11th of December 2011

Sunday. Not much of sun today. Sad. I want me sun. Anyway, woke up late. So many dreams that I couldn't even remember any of them.

Yan and I went for brunch at hong kee in taipan. The food was brilliant! A bit pricy though. And then we walked around. It's so nice to just walk around instead of driving. Haven't been walking on the street. And then we went Empire. I saw the love of my life. A 1200bucks Ed Hardy sunny!!! And it's got 40% discount. I'm dying to get it. But its too pricy. How would I afford to buy? It's insane! I'm still thinking about it. I really love it. Butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it. He's one in a billion.

Quit that first. Just now on my way back after dropping Yan off at LRT station, I was so blue. I nearly cried. Jeez!

Then I decided to go to Sunway Pyramid to kill time. No cute guys. Anyway, I got myself a POPCORN set. Yum yum yum! And then then came back and watch Hachiko.

Gosh, my tears ran down like a leaking tap. I swear I couldn't feel it and the tears just ran down my face like that. It's so sad to see him like that. His owner died and never came back. But the dog doesn't know. How could it possibly know? And now I'm worrying about my tortoises. What am I gonna do with them when I die?

At night I saw this reality show called bachelorette. Gosh! Those guys are hawt! William is so cute. Watching the show makes me feel so lonely. Becoming desperate. Wish to have a bf. Dang! Maybe Mr Right is waiting for me at Simple Plan's concert. Let's be positive.

Happy Thoughts =)

Had a great chat with L earlier this morning. More like midnight. Chatted for 2 hours till 5 in the morning. He's always got this something to keep me awake even when I'm dead tired. Prolly cuz we're too similar. It's always nice to talk to him. Like talking to the younger me. Hahahaha I always joke about how we might be long lost cousin. How can two human beings have so much in common. Just weird. Especially our thinking about relationships and how picky we both are. DANG!

So he was telling me about this girl he's just met and how he wants to confess to her but fear that she will reject him. I guess this girl really is very special and must be really pretty too. Actually I felt honored to hear all these cuz telling me all these meant he trusts me. I'm happy for him but at the same time I'm sad for him because he's such a pessimist. Well bro, if you keep thinking that it's not gonna work out and all you really are gonna be forever alone.

Earlier, I was reading back what I wrote in this blog. Hahahahaha I didn't realize I was such an awesome writer. I can't believe all the things I've written. Like a pro. Especially the quotes I wrote to Berry and Yan about relationship using tornado tsunami as metaphor. I didn't quite remember that. Many other things too. I was sad, I was happy, I WAS ON CLOUD NINE WHEN SIMPLE PLAN ALBUM WAS RELEASED! Great moments. Awesome memories. Looking back could be so much fun.

I'm reading a book title Always The Bridesmaid. Gosh this book is driving me nuts. I wonder if Amy is going to end up alone or not. Damn! She's such a bitch in that book I couldn't stand reading the book cuz it's using first person. It's all me, myself and I. It's like I'M the bitch. Gosh! Unbelievable! I dowanna be like her. One thing about this book it's that it kinda introduced places to me. Such as Rome's attraction. Colosseum, St. Peter's (need to climb 500++ steps to reach the top but there's nice view up there), the Pantheon... AMAZING places. I wanna go Rome already =(

Anyway, it's going to be a long day tomorrow. Gonna go to bed earlier and travel to Subang again. DAMN! Don't you just hate travelling? Need to pack up pack up~