You were gone too soon...

Hey there now
Where’d you go
You left me here so unexpected
You changed my life
I hope you know
Cause now I’m lost
So unprotected

In a blink of an eye
I never got to say goodbye

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

You were always there
And like shining light
On my darkest days
You were there to guide me

Oh I miss you now
I wish you could see
Just how much your memory
Will always mean to me
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In a blink of an eye
I never got to say goodbye

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

Shine on! shine on!
To a better place
Shine on! shine on!
Will never be the same

Like a shooting star
Flyin’ across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You’re part of me
And I’ll never be
The same here without you
You were gone too soon

Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon
Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon
Shine on! shine on!
You were gone too soon

Lyrics from the song gone too soon…

Well, this morning I don’t get to sing it with my heart yet because I don't quite feel the lyric. But after church, he gave me a very awful reason to sing…

Get you heart ON!!!

Click here. It will direct you to the link to stream the whole album.

Gosh! You have no idea HOW happy I was when I saw this on my dad's iPhone last night. I was like on cloud 9! I mean maybe not getting the Ultimate Fan Bundle ain't that bad after all. It's like I don't have the free membership and posters that's all. Because I still get to stream the WHOLE album.

I'm so with EVERY SINGLE song in this "Get Your Heart On" album. Imma SPread this news. Everybody MUST get the album or at least go stream it!

There's a few, wait NO, a number of songs in this album I really really like. 1st of cuz is none other than Jetlag! I really really love the song "Gone Too Soon", "This Song Saved My Life", "Last One Standing", "You Suck At Love", "Summer Paradise", "Freaking Me Out".... Wait, this is like almost the whole album already! Hahahahahaha... Call me crazy but I'm really obsessed about this band.

Here's the lyric of "This Song Saved My Life".

Damn, I dunno what to say. Totally speechless. Simple Plan NEVER let me down. But the Live Chat with Simple Plan always does. I don't understand how that thing works. Or izzit cuz it was at the end already?! Ah, whatever. I didn't make it for the chat because dad promised to send me back at 6am but ended up departing at 6.30am. Oh well, at least I get to stream the WHOLE album. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! I've waited for the album for like.......3 and a half years!!!

IT IS WORTH WAITING! Because the songs they produced are AWESOME!!! I can go on saying this forever. Oh how I love you Simple Plan. So love you for a moment I'd almost forgotten my love. Simple Plan is EVERYTHING to me. And I can't wait till I get this album!!!

One thing, I was blessed with RM300. I dunno what to do with it. I was supposed to get something I need with that money but I didn't expect I was given this much. Should I buy the Ultimate Fan Bundle? NAH!!!!!!!!!! I thought that through... Not really that necessary anymore. 50 bucks goes to.....*censored* and the rest I will spend them wisely!

WOOHOO!!! Today is the HAPPIEST day of my life (so far)!!! And I gave dad the Music & Wine album.

Wonder if he's gonna like it. Since he drinks wine so much, guess he needs a really awesome cd as company. Anyway, it was meant for the Father's Day. Like it or not, it's his now! Next trip back home I'm gonna rip those cds for my iPod. Seriously in love with Jazz music.

Listening to Simple Plan's "Summer Paradise" now. Feel like going to the beach!!!

Peace out! See ya next time!

Love is just around the corner...

So he said I'm a stalker. Damn! I know it's true but that was kinda hurtful. That sentence keeps circling in my head. Gosh! I seriously don't like this feeling.

My sad look... WAHAHA!

This morning I told Berry I'm tired of banging on walls like a stupid ball. This indicates that it is one sided, no respond, nothing at all. Just the harder I hit, the further I bounce back and the harder I hit the ground.

Should I carry on? I can't help but wondering. But if he is who God promised will be mine then he will be. Till now I'm still not certain. I dowanna take action because I'm afraid of the outcomes. What if in the end it turns out he was just another passerby but I already love him so deeply I can't turn back? What if in the end I will lose him? I cannot bear to see what's coming. Cannot bear losing him as a lover or a friend.

In the recent episode of HIMYM I watched, after what Jen said to Ted about how love is running to him, ask him to wait. I'm like.... yea, JUST WAIT. It's just around the corner. Maybe at my blindspot I just hadn't seen. Hahahaha, too good to be true. Man, I really hate guessing games. What to do? Tik tok tik tok... I guess I'll just wait till the day he's leaving Malaysia. Cuz by that time, I have nothing else to lose.

Just around the corner.....

Dream dream dream~

I gotta say, Superman has been my childhood superhero. Look how awesome he is?!

That was random but em..... what can I say? I just feel like blogging something. I don't need a reader, I just wanna be a writer (Doesn't really make sense). Thoughts could get you far but when you come back to senses, you're still at where you were. I wanna see how far I can get... whether in reality or in my dreams.

Dreams have no boundaries. I gotta agree with this. A handsome mixed guy randomly entered my dream and told me he has no idea what he is and all he knew was that he's a muslim. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?

In reality, don't think anyone would actually come to me and say that. Fun-neh!

Well, I dunno what am I trying to write here but for now, my life is kinda heading to nowhere. Sucks! Who cares? I have many reasons to stay in this world still. I have my dream of owning a FOOD COMPLEX. Yes, you "heard" me. My dream is to own a building with different cuisines. Guess I need to travel all over the world to hire some really great chefs to make this happen. But the problem is, I have the concept, but I don't have modal. I'm on liability! I own the freaking ptptn money! How O how long will my dreams come true?

Nevermind... If the world's not gonna end, I will have the chance to achieve it. But for now, live a life like I'm dying first. Hiak hiak.... TETRIS BATTLE HERE I COME!

Believe

I was once lost,

Feelin’ so empty couldn’t find someone to think of.

You can call me a masochist,

For they say love brings lotsa pain but I’m dying to feel it again.

After months of fantasy (about Lee Seung Gi),

You came along and changed everything.

Throwing cautions to the wind,

I gave you a chance to sneak in.

How I wish I could love you recklessly,

But an awful truth made me kept you away from me.

Yet I think about you all the time,

Wondering if there’s this day you’d be mine.

I’ve always acted like I didn’t care when you’re around,

Deep down all I ever wanted was you to talk to me.

How can two persons click so well?

Yet there’s nothing that could tie them together.

Hungry I call upon the Lord,

Somehow losing you (as a friend) is something I can’t afford.

You trust me enough to vent on me,

For I’m a good listener, friend, perhaps big sister?

O how I hate myself when you look me in the eyes,

When all the butterflies in my tummy evolve.

I’ll wait for the moment for I believe,

Whether you’re mine or not that’s for God to keep.

Emo queen is back?

What is this all about? I dunno what am I writing this. Frustrated perhaps. I'm so tired of being misunderstood.

So first was my mum, then my brother, after that my dad too... And now? Joshua. AWESOME! Husky voice or low key doesn't mean I'm mad or speak in frustration okay? I really am frustrated right now. I seriously don't understand. Yes I know the way I speak sometimes like damn rude but fucker! I didn't fucking mean it alright?! Sentence construct wrong also kena. Chao cibai eh! I was just talking normally, no mood fluctuation also kena. WHAT THE FUCK?!

Called Vinod just now and I guess I shocked him a lil because I sensed the way he spoke to me was a lil cautious. Sorry I had to cry on the phone because I was really tired of being accused for something I didn't do. Joshua didn't know I cried cuz of that argument we had. I feel sorry it had to be that way because that was the second time he accused me. I know you're not happy because you lost your wallet but it doesn't you can just blame the world.

Think back I still feel sorry for myself. It's like things I say always being taken the wrong way. Nan jeongmal ihaega an dwaeyo! Wae?! Wae geulesso?! Naega michyeogago isso!

Forget it. I'm big people. I don't wanna argue with whoever. Let them be... Not worth my time... Fuck you haters!

My Confession

Have you ever cried so hard you can barely breathe?
That the pain inside your heart fully consumed you?
Like a fire burning.
You tried to hold back your tears but it kept coming down,
Just Unstoppable.

Family issues are often complicated,
I took it seriously but acted like it didn't matter.
Not voicing it out doesn't mean I don't care,
I was just trying not to lose it.
Yet no matter what I do no matter what I say,
I'm just a pain in your ass who gets in your way.

Sometimes it just doesn't make sense to me,
Am I the problem?
Or izzit you the one who made mr the problem?
It seems to me that nothing,
NOTHING I've said pleased you.
What is wrong?
With you or with me?

I really hate it when I'm misunderstood.
But God knows how many times shit happened,
So many times I just wanna get the hell outta this place.
It was never my intention to makes you mad,
Somehow my face alone drives you insane.

You always think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do,
You always disapprove.
You never listen but you always judge.
Why the hell I tried so hard to impress?
Being on the edge of breaking down but you won't even look my way.

I guess I've finally found my mind,
To finally see the true colour and what you're like.
Forgive for what I'm gonna do,
Like I said it was never my intention to drive you cuckoo.