Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Broken hearted


I know deep down, you still miss her a lot.
And I know deep down, you're just trying to replace her.
The sickest part is, I saw how thick the wall is between the both of us,
Yet, I still let myself run into it.

I hate that I love you so.
You keep circling in my head, day and night.
I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind.
I hate myself for being foolish thinking that I stood a chance.


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

猜测

好想去爱你,但却怕伤了自己。
你借着一首歌,暗示了我。
是我单纯认为你没什么意思?
还是我不想面对现实?
我只是一笑而过。

在我还没遇见你以前,
有人告诉我你不是个好人。
当时我下定要决心恶整你,
怎知却不知不觉地爱上你。
难道是天意弄人吗?

昨天你为了我和男生出去的事,
生气了不理我。
我真不懂你是真的生气,
还是你对身边的每一个女人都这样。
放过我好不好?

你说你生气了,
因为我给不到你安全感。
我也生气了,
因为我们什么都不是,
你却无理取闹。

我真的很害怕,
重来都没爱得轰轰烈烈,
一次又一次的受伤害,
我也对自己失去了信心。
不想再有任何期盼。

我只想找个好男人,
一个会很爱我的人。
如果你不想天长地久,
我也不要任何曾经拥有。
因为我输不起。

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Page 13 and 14 of 366

Page 13 - Simple Plan landed! Velvet is not a fabric...

One more day till Simple Plan concert! Sherroy was here and I was supposed to go hang out and watch Sherlock Holmes with her. I stood up on her last minute and went to the airport to meet SIMPLE PLAN! So we lazed around the house for the whole day till around 3.45pm I left the house to KLIA. And fuck it. I had to wear heels because I'm too lazy to bring extra pair of shoes around for clubbing later at Velvet Zouk. And fuck another thing. Malaysia's KL transit is SICK! Need to climb so many staircases like what the fuck?! And I had to save money so I stopped at Salak tinggi, got out, and entered the station again and did the same when I left to KLCC. Though in total I saved like 25-30bucks, but I totally killed my feet.

So when I got to the KLIA I was 30% dead. Waited for like 2-3 hours and finally saw Simple Plan cuz their flight was delayed. At first, I saw these four fellas I thought were Indians and asked if they're here for Simple Plan who turned out to be Maldivians. Then they joined me with the waiting. Gosh, you will never understand this feeling. The waiting was torturing. Right when I saw the plane has LANDED, my tummy flipped. Butterflies for like 40 minutes till the finally came out. Jesus, that was one hell of a waiting. That, I gotta say was worse than giving birth. So Shahu and his brother had a plane to catch but Simple Crew was nowhere to be seen so I offered to get autographs for Nooreen. Just as they left, THEY APPEARED! LIKE OMGGGGG! I was so lost. Couldn't react. Thrilled to see them.
And then Pierre was really close, awkward silence. I went "Hi?" (Voice cracked!!! Koyak!!!) and Pierre with husky voice said "Hi" back. OMGGGGG that feeling! I nearly fainted. Hahahaha! And then I asked him if I could get his autograph and he said "Sure, Let's go outside.". And I walked beside him. RIGHT BESIDE HIM! Damn... I would do anything to do that again. And then my damn iPod failed me. FINE! At least I got Seb's and Chuck's autograph. Better yet, A HUG from Seb. Maybe a hug to him. LOL! I gotta admit, I never really give a damn about Seb. But when I saw him, jeez i can't take my eyes off him. He's so charming! Now I understand why people like him so much. He is so so so so so charming and friendly. Chuck wasn't really friendly which is a lil heartbreaking for me. But I took a pic with him. OH YES!

Sadly I didn't get really close to Jeff and DAVID! Omg, damn Seb. Caught my attention that I forgotten my David. Nevermind! Andddddd I was in Simple Plan's Malaysia's Vlog!!! And also a few picture. I even appeared in Hot Magazine.


A long day is over. I mean Long Waiting. I nearly cried in the toilet. Amazed by the short 5-10 mins with them. I couldn't explain that feeling. Beyond words. After that, I traveled all the way back to the city to meet up with Sherroy and Vinson + the rest. Velvet was the place. Gosh it was a nice club but I was too tired to even enjoy it. The environment was pretty awesome. Less creepy people there. But the sick part is I had this super yucky shot that made me wanna throw up. It was so called strongest shot they have there. Gosh, strong enough to make me feel like throwing up only cuz of the stupid kanasai taste. GAG!

After club, we went mamak and crap all night and head back. One hell of a day. The next day even worse. CONCERT DAY!!!

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Page 14 - Ready to Get My Heart ONNN!!!
Concert day finally. After waiting for my entire life. The day I've been longing for. Sherroy, Yvonne and I went to Pavilion with all her luggage and went to this hotel I forgot its name right opposite Fahrenheit 88. Damn! Don't underestimate it. IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL! Smells good too. We waited for Kimmy. Kimmy was really nice. Hahaha I never thought she would like me. Considering I'm not her level.

Anyway, after lunch (a horrible one. Damn japanese curry!) I went hunting for clothes to be wore to the concert. At first got myself a pink checkers. DAMN I FEEL DAMN HOT WEARING THAT THANG! So I went hunting somemore after sending Sherroy and Kimmy off. Yvonne, poor thing, she has to study but was dragged along. Thank goodness I found a super cheap and comfy Rip Curl T. And we're good to go.

Call myself a die hard fan? It was only 4, more people than I expected was there at the venue queuing already. So I was ditched alone there while Yvonne went studying in KFC right opposite KL Live. The long wait goes again. Damn I really am tired of waiting. But this is gonna be worth it. WOOOHOOO!!!

The concert was amazing! I get goosebumps just thinking about it. Before the concert, Jin and Ryan were crapping up there. Damn you Jin for not replying my tweets! And then some local new band selected by Simple Plan performed.

AND FINALLY! The time has come! They kicked start the concert with the song Shut Up! Seb was so cute in red pants.






Everything about that night felt surreal. Who would have thought I can finally meet them? I thought I was never gonna see them. But I did. That feeling is so overwhelming. When the performed My Alien I was screaming like a lunatic. One of my favorite songs in their FIRST ever album. They wrapped the concert off by singing Perfect. Ended perfectly.

I would do anything to see them again really. Hope that my wish will come true. AMEN!


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Monday, January 9, 2012

My heart is so ON for Simple Plan.


OMG!!!!!!!!!!! FEW MORE DAYS AWAY TILL I SEE SIMPLE PLAN!!!!!!!!!!! They are currently on their GYHO2012 Tour. Performing in Hong Kong tomorrow. Then, Philippine. After that, MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been spending my last couple of days listening to Simple Plan's latest album. I needda learn all the lyrics! GOSH! I'm so so high! Last Friday JFK from Hitz.fm was giving out Simple Plan ROCK ZONE concert ticket. I wanna commit suicide cuz I bought it myself. But it's alright. At least it's guaranteed. Sides, I dowanna spend my time getting so nervous and all. BUT THEY'RE GIVING FREE PASSES TO MEET AND GREET SIMPLE PLAN! This is something to die for. OMG! Please lemme win it! I'd do anything within my capability to talk to them and see them face to face! I'd even go to the airport to welcome them. JESUS! How to track the time? OMG gimme some hints please. I WANNA SEE THEM!!!! Literally stuck my ears to Hitz.fm that night. Got retweeted by JFK and be the only one who has a tweet favorite-ed by Hitz.fm. BEST DAY EVER yet. But its so sad I didn't hear anything about the meet and greet Simple Plan. Instead, they have for Foster the People. B-U-M-M-E-R!

Geez, I've been high all week. Yesterday went starbucks. Ain't that the best place to do your stuff? I so rely on Starbucks. It's not doing me good cuz I can't do anything at hostel. JEEZ! It's so annoying. And omg ain't the world small? I saw Ling Ming at Starbucks CHERAS! Seriously what is wrong with the world? And why her? Why not someone else?


Anyway, today was so unproductive. Jeez! I watched I Am Number Four. Gosh... starting to feel that guy i forgot his real name. He's got this typical beach boyish yet cool kinda look. AHHHH! I can't wait till the next movie. When is The Power Of Six coming out? 2 years? Gimme a gun! Maybe I should get a book.

WHO CARES NOW? All I can think of is Simple Plan right now. GOSH! And what's worse? They literally turned me into a stalker! I keep stalking JFK to see if he's tweeting about Simple Plan. AND SHIT! Now I just realized Hitz Live is at 8pm till 12am. I WOULD HAVE MISSED THE MEET AND GREET! I'm going to die... gimme a gun!

Whatever, go to bed. Listen to hitz tomorrow. Let's hope I will get lucky.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

CHRIST-mas!



Ho ho ho~ It's CHRISTMAS!!! Like FINALLY!!! But why am I so happy when I'm just spending it like any other day? Well, maybe it's cuz i felt loved. Its a day to remember Jesus. Our God is an awesome, mighty God. It's a day that gives us MORE reason to give love. Hallelujah~

My Christmas's Eve was nothing too fancy or thoughtful. I spent my night with Yan at her apartment (this word always makes me think of those really cool apartment we see in movies). I watched a movie called Christmas Kiss. And then we watched Miss Universe 2011 while have....... GARRETT POPCORN CHICAGO MIX!!!!!!


OMG this popcorn! First bite was DIVINE! I cannot explain that feeling but man was I in cloud nine. The long queue was really worth it, moreover it's for a super big popcorn lover like me. It's actually a temporary Xmas gift for Yan. Thought I wanna get a Bible or something like the Our Daily Bread thingy booklet. Who'd have expected? Kinokuniya doesn't have so much of this kinda stuff. The religion book there was....... too factual kinda book. Sure will bore her or give her stress. And since she said she's planning to get a bible, I definitely gonna get her one. Cuz, bible should be a gift. You don't buy your own bible until you're very ready to read it in a different version to see a clearer and better picture of what God's trying to tell us.

Anyway, I need to curse her for making me emo last night. Hahahaha damn girl! It's Christmas! Stop thinking about the Forever Alone future for one second please. I'm not really that desperate cuz I haven't actually found one yet (though deep down I kinda wish it would be L...). God WILL prepare for me. Maybe I wasn't meant to be in a relationship after all right? Well, whatever You want Lord. I will follow what You want.

OH! Did I not mention about Miss Universe? YAY! The winner was the one I really really like. She's from Angola. Dunno where the hell is that but BOY! her smile was a drop dead GORGEOUS killer smile. SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL!!!



HOW CAN A PERSON BE SO PERFECT? Her body is so awesome! In love with her~ So glad that she won.

Last night wished a few longggg lost friends Merry Christmas. Kenny! LOL he's a really funny person. He was so quiet when we were in Gold Coast and then yesterday, MAN can he talk. He's really spontaneous and super sweet. I've always thought he's a rather quiet person. But ho ho ho! He's a Sarjan or something man. Must be very active and is a really great leader. And I talked to my lou gong zai Yao Yang. Still the sweetest kid. Hahahaha love my little friend so much. So many wonderful people in the world I never gave a damn about them sometimes. I feel awful. But I'm glad that now I'm not that lazy to talk to people like I used to. Jeez!

It's Christmas day. Not Xmas. Damn Hong Joo. Annoying! Always got those weird theories. Well, what can I say? I have lotsa weird thinking too. Unacceptable sometimes. Hahahaha. Gonna spread my love~~


Last but not least, I gotta share a Christmas carol. None other than the classic We Wish You A Merry Christmas =)